A Letter to Myself │Spoken Word Poetry

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a letter to myself the clock strikes

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three in the morning and I find myself

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still awake tossing and turning thinking

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and thinking about the day that awaits

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my mind is against me but my heart tells

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me to be strong it tells me that I will

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eventually find my you for key I just

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need a hold on there are reasons why

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people live on and face the mundane and

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sometimes bleak hours of this thing we

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call life there are reasons we enjoy the

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sunrise every morning birdsong and how

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some people push the thought of suicide

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away and put down the knife the laughter

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loved ones cause the warmth of a hug and

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a sweet late night kiss it is in these

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moments that the wounded Souls find

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bliss every known words of hatred

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towards myself for many years words that

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I'd never call anyone else words filled

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with anger and fears dear me who has

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pushed through pain attempted ending it

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all and has built an indestructible

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wallet to protect what's left of a

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broken person you love so much and yet

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never give the same amount to yourself

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you help others when they fall will you

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hurt yourself instead of asking for help

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you see all of your faults and tear

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yourself down you continue the cycle

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until you start to drown why can't you

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see what others see

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why do you beat yourself up and say what

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will be will be it may all seem

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pointless and worthless but you beat the

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odds before and have set yourself free

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yes you always get caught engaged that

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does not stop you from dreaming of that

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stage where your hope is telling you you

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will escape again where your family is

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cheering for you and so are your friends

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the spark inside of you has become weak

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in its motivation and courage that you

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seek there have been nights when you

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have cried and have buried your sorrows

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and have said you have tried but there

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is a tomorrow that you dread and worry

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about because you think will be the same

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there is no sunshine

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there's just rain hoping for a love so

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dear and a future so bright can I run

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away from my fears don't I have that

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right so here it is a letter from me

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it's me a letter I must not burn a

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letter that I need no matter the hell on

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earth or the uncertainty of the unknown

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I must prevail we must prevail a legacy

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must be left behind so I must we must

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stand up dream big and rise

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